Inspiration: To continue to fine tune my desires.
Have you ever had a completely, weird, disastrous date? Well, most recently, a good friend of mine had. Not that it was bad, it was just UNBELIEVABLE!!!
A woman he met through a friend asked if he would like to have lunch. She happened to be a chef, an amazing natural kinda cook who preferred "organic" ingredients. In my naive days, I thought that "organic" eating and people who were, were normal, so to speak. More grounded more zen. As I got older, wiser, I realized there are all kinds.This is in no way a judgment, just a fact.:)
As, I tend to keep these musings clean, please forgive me if this turns into something a bit raunchy at moments, as when I scribe, it is a stream of consciousness flowing forwards.:-) So this woman arrives at my friends house and stirs up a fabulous lunch. As this guy has been a radio broadcaster and interviewer of some very famous rock icons, he loves to find out more about others. So he asks her the question, "What are you most proud of?" According to him, she hemmed and hawed for a good five minutes or so. Then she reveals the following:
"I am most proud of the time I was on the Howard Stern Show, as the naked chef!" I can only imagine how wide his eyes opened (and he has beautiful, big, blue ones) when she began to utter these words. She then went into some story:
Howard was not happy with me, or something to that effect and she was thrown off the set. She later came back on set when Kid Rock was there and was standing naked, while cupcakes were being thrown at her. She even seemed to enjoy this for some reason, although she said the frosting could have been better tasting.
Anyway, a few more encounters on her part, some kray kray behavior and you get the rest. So my dear friend asks me, "Tell me what I did to attract this?" I had to go inside myself for a moment and don't think I gave him the BEST answer; my true feelings.. So initially I say, knowing him quite well (or at least I think), "There is a part of you that doesn't want a commitment, You say you do, but don't want to get married and need a lot of space." I then go onto say, " Your energy is all over the place, so you are attracting this chaos as a reflection, parts of who you are, where your energy is going.." I also told him that you have to be clear about your intentions, create the space to receive.
He deeply took this in. In hindsight, I realized a bit more. We are always presented with a mirror of ourselves. What is reflected in the outside world is a reflection of what is going on in our interior. So for him, there may be a desire for intimate connection, but a larger part fears it. (Sorry babe). From my own personal experience, we have to make peace with our past, our hurts, our wounding and forgive; to allow for our beautiful desires to move forward. We are consistently shown this in our external world.
So if you take a good look at the people and events going on in your life, this is an indication, a snapshot of your energy. Are you happy with what you see? If not, you have the POWER to change it. This is an "inside" job...No matter what, you are safe, you are loved and have the ability to shift anything that no longer serves you. Always; in all ways.
With Love, Denise
Monday, October 1, 2012
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Real Housewives of NYC Encounter
Inspiration: To continue to remain open to infinite possibility...
Sitting upon a simple terry-striped, purple towel in Riverside Park, birkenstocks at my side, I look up and notice a familiar face. A beautiful, tall, toned woman in a red, flowing dress appears before me. She is walking her "sweet" white dog enjoying this summers day. I happened to be on the phone when I noticed her, with my mentor in Laguna Beach, CA doing card divination, invoking the oracular.
But something inside of me said to call out to this woman. Without naming who she was, I say "Are you ...?" Her reply was "Yes." Then she casually asked what I was doing (or I may have told her so she didn't think I was off my rocker) and I said I was on the phone with my teacher doing divination with cards. She seemed intrigued and engaged a bit more. As I am not a multi-tasker, I was having a healing session with the West Coast and a celebrity encounter on the East Coast.:)
We chatted for a few brief moments about what I was doing, and she said she could really use some of that after the season she had. For some strange reason, I went out of my comfort zone and offered her my card. Not that she asked me, I just felt guided somehow. She took it to which I said, " I would love to hear from you and if not I bless you." I then brought my hands together in front of my forehand to bless her as she walked off into the distance.
One last thing...she did ask me if I watched some new reality tv show on mediums, to which I oddly answered, " I threw out my television during my yoga teacher training, but I did watch your show!" I cannot believe those words came out of my mouth !!! As it would be truly wonderful to connect with this woman in some way, I take this encounter as a gift from SPIRIT; for me to vocalize and shine my light more fully in the world...to inspire others to live their highest expression.
As I now complete this musing, I believe the message is to dare to risk!!! You never know what might happen, for the "divine" weaves her magic in mysterious ways, hence the fabulous tune by U2.
Be present, be loving, be free....From my heart to yours.
With Love, Denise
Sitting upon a simple terry-striped, purple towel in Riverside Park, birkenstocks at my side, I look up and notice a familiar face. A beautiful, tall, toned woman in a red, flowing dress appears before me. She is walking her "sweet" white dog enjoying this summers day. I happened to be on the phone when I noticed her, with my mentor in Laguna Beach, CA doing card divination, invoking the oracular.
But something inside of me said to call out to this woman. Without naming who she was, I say "Are you ...?" Her reply was "Yes." Then she casually asked what I was doing (or I may have told her so she didn't think I was off my rocker) and I said I was on the phone with my teacher doing divination with cards. She seemed intrigued and engaged a bit more. As I am not a multi-tasker, I was having a healing session with the West Coast and a celebrity encounter on the East Coast.:)
We chatted for a few brief moments about what I was doing, and she said she could really use some of that after the season she had. For some strange reason, I went out of my comfort zone and offered her my card. Not that she asked me, I just felt guided somehow. She took it to which I said, " I would love to hear from you and if not I bless you." I then brought my hands together in front of my forehand to bless her as she walked off into the distance.
One last thing...she did ask me if I watched some new reality tv show on mediums, to which I oddly answered, " I threw out my television during my yoga teacher training, but I did watch your show!" I cannot believe those words came out of my mouth !!! As it would be truly wonderful to connect with this woman in some way, I take this encounter as a gift from SPIRIT; for me to vocalize and shine my light more fully in the world...to inspire others to live their highest expression.
As I now complete this musing, I believe the message is to dare to risk!!! You never know what might happen, for the "divine" weaves her magic in mysterious ways, hence the fabulous tune by U2.
Be present, be loving, be free....From my heart to yours.
With Love, Denise
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Life Is A Rollercoster
Inspiration: To be fearless, grounded and present; always :)
For years, I have been wanting to go to Coney Island. Not really sure why, maybe just to reconnect with the kid in me who used to enjoy going on rollercoaster rides. It has been many years since then, well over twenty.
This past Labor Day was no ordinary day, but a Cyclone kind of day. A friend of mine suggested we go, and initially I was hesitant because it was a holiday. There is no time like the present, right? So I went outside of my comfort zone and said "yes" on a Holiday weekend. From the moment we stepped off the subway steps onto the streets of Coney Island, I felt extremely peaceful.
After having some pizza, which btw, I haven't had in over a year, I felt myself letting go of my rigidity and structure. A brief stint on the beach until the rain started to fall and I knew it was time to venture into the amusement park. I felt like a little kid, with eyes wide open, filled with joy and enthusiasm!!! At some point in the day, I was determined to make my way onto a rollercoaster ride. The last time I can remember going on one was at Hersey Park, PA back in the days when I was a group leader at sleepaway camp. That and the early days of Great Adventure (70's, early 80's) I remember fondly. Days filled with overindulging in icecream, fudge and whatever my heart desired without guilt.:)
So after playing many games of skeeball (one of my favorites) I was determined to go on a roller coaster. I was so excited and felt like I was 15 again. I opted for "The Steeplechase" since it was baby-like in it's view but not intensity. It was a short ride with an initial decent that made the adrenaline pump through my entire body. I made it. I had arrived (where I don't know) ! At a distance away, I noticed the world famous "CYCLONE", something I had heard about but didn't know it's place in history as it was now 85 years old.
My ego wanted to check it out, take a ride since I boldly mastered the steeplechase. My friend and I walk over to this wooden monstrosity. You could hear the cars rattle and people scream as the coaster peaks and drops with abandon. I was determined to go no matter what but a part of me was weary. The architecture of the structure seemed to be original, with red leather seats and one straight bar for protection. For one-minute, fifty seconds, I held on for dear life and prayed I would make my way off this thing.
When I got off I was in a whirlwind. Spinning metaphorically. Totally ungrounded and out of sorts. I asked my friend, "Why would anyone enjoy this.?" He said, " Because their life is unfilling and they need a rush." This brought me back to the days of when I needed a rush, emotionally. Thinking it was normal and serving me to feel the high of being in a setting or situation where you could feel every fiber of your being pulsating at a frenetic, chaotic frequency.
I realized, I know longer needed that, or liked this feeling. A good reminder of what it means to feel grounded and present in my body. Listening to our ego often gets us into trouble. Thanks heavens, the trouble I felt myself in was for only under two minutes that day. A great lesson.
So what rollercoaster may you be riding? Does it serve you? Why do we sometimes venture on a path that is not in our highest good, for our highest potential? Think about it and have a blessed day.
With Love, Denise
For years, I have been wanting to go to Coney Island. Not really sure why, maybe just to reconnect with the kid in me who used to enjoy going on rollercoaster rides. It has been many years since then, well over twenty.
This past Labor Day was no ordinary day, but a Cyclone kind of day. A friend of mine suggested we go, and initially I was hesitant because it was a holiday. There is no time like the present, right? So I went outside of my comfort zone and said "yes" on a Holiday weekend. From the moment we stepped off the subway steps onto the streets of Coney Island, I felt extremely peaceful.
After having some pizza, which btw, I haven't had in over a year, I felt myself letting go of my rigidity and structure. A brief stint on the beach until the rain started to fall and I knew it was time to venture into the amusement park. I felt like a little kid, with eyes wide open, filled with joy and enthusiasm!!! At some point in the day, I was determined to make my way onto a rollercoaster ride. The last time I can remember going on one was at Hersey Park, PA back in the days when I was a group leader at sleepaway camp. That and the early days of Great Adventure (70's, early 80's) I remember fondly. Days filled with overindulging in icecream, fudge and whatever my heart desired without guilt.:)
So after playing many games of skeeball (one of my favorites) I was determined to go on a roller coaster. I was so excited and felt like I was 15 again. I opted for "The Steeplechase" since it was baby-like in it's view but not intensity. It was a short ride with an initial decent that made the adrenaline pump through my entire body. I made it. I had arrived (where I don't know) ! At a distance away, I noticed the world famous "CYCLONE", something I had heard about but didn't know it's place in history as it was now 85 years old.
My ego wanted to check it out, take a ride since I boldly mastered the steeplechase. My friend and I walk over to this wooden monstrosity. You could hear the cars rattle and people scream as the coaster peaks and drops with abandon. I was determined to go no matter what but a part of me was weary. The architecture of the structure seemed to be original, with red leather seats and one straight bar for protection. For one-minute, fifty seconds, I held on for dear life and prayed I would make my way off this thing.
When I got off I was in a whirlwind. Spinning metaphorically. Totally ungrounded and out of sorts. I asked my friend, "Why would anyone enjoy this.?" He said, " Because their life is unfilling and they need a rush." This brought me back to the days of when I needed a rush, emotionally. Thinking it was normal and serving me to feel the high of being in a setting or situation where you could feel every fiber of your being pulsating at a frenetic, chaotic frequency.
I realized, I know longer needed that, or liked this feeling. A good reminder of what it means to feel grounded and present in my body. Listening to our ego often gets us into trouble. Thanks heavens, the trouble I felt myself in was for only under two minutes that day. A great lesson.
So what rollercoaster may you be riding? Does it serve you? Why do we sometimes venture on a path that is not in our highest good, for our highest potential? Think about it and have a blessed day.
With Love, Denise
Friday, August 17, 2012
More Meditation Drama...
Inspiration: To continue to breathe no matter what is going on around me.
This morning brought me an amazing opportunity to breathe and be present. For some time now, I have committed myself to sitting, meditating in the am hours. Whether it be really early or a bit later depending on my schedule, I sit..I pray..I surrender.
This morning presented me with another excellent opportunity to focus, especially on the breathe. It is our breathe that either creates ease or discomfort. Unfortunately, most times we don't even pay attention as we allow our mind to run the show. If only we took a moment, a pause, and focused our attention to our breathing. Our moments and days would be that much more ease full.
So it was 8am when I committed to sitting. I began with my daily chanting and then prayer and then stillness. As I was entering a tranquil state, there was noise on the street. Not just any noise mind you, jack-hammer, excruciatingly (is that a word) painful noise. I said no matter what this is a good exercise. I am going to sit for my allotted time (which was longer today as I had the time) and just breathe.
The more I continued to focus on my breathe, the more the noise began to diminish. It was still there, but it softened. There was a bit more space, a bit more ease. Eventually the jack hammer took a vacation and it ceased completely. Then I fell into a very peaceful place.:)
So it is with most of life. There is noise; both the internal noise in our heads and the external noise (and people) in the world. When we take some time out of our busy days, even for a few moments it assists us in becoming more peaceful, loving human beings. As with anything worthwhile this is a practice. But I promise you, it is worth the effort. Try it on for size. And see what happens....
Think about it and have a wonderful day.
With Love, D
This morning brought me an amazing opportunity to breathe and be present. For some time now, I have committed myself to sitting, meditating in the am hours. Whether it be really early or a bit later depending on my schedule, I sit..I pray..I surrender.
This morning presented me with another excellent opportunity to focus, especially on the breathe. It is our breathe that either creates ease or discomfort. Unfortunately, most times we don't even pay attention as we allow our mind to run the show. If only we took a moment, a pause, and focused our attention to our breathing. Our moments and days would be that much more ease full.
So it was 8am when I committed to sitting. I began with my daily chanting and then prayer and then stillness. As I was entering a tranquil state, there was noise on the street. Not just any noise mind you, jack-hammer, excruciatingly (is that a word) painful noise. I said no matter what this is a good exercise. I am going to sit for my allotted time (which was longer today as I had the time) and just breathe.
The more I continued to focus on my breathe, the more the noise began to diminish. It was still there, but it softened. There was a bit more space, a bit more ease. Eventually the jack hammer took a vacation and it ceased completely. Then I fell into a very peaceful place.:)
So it is with most of life. There is noise; both the internal noise in our heads and the external noise (and people) in the world. When we take some time out of our busy days, even for a few moments it assists us in becoming more peaceful, loving human beings. As with anything worthwhile this is a practice. But I promise you, it is worth the effort. Try it on for size. And see what happens....
Think about it and have a wonderful day.
With Love, D
Monday, July 23, 2012
The Simple Truth
Inspiration: To live simply, from the heart.:)
I hope everyone is enjoying summer. For me, this has been a time of great growth. Taking inventory of what is really important. Going inwards and clearing out that which no longer serves.
The simple truth is you just never know what is right around the corner. For better or worse. Not to put a negative spin on anything but just to remind myself and whoever may be reading this, that what really counts is what we are doing right now. Not tomorrow, next week or year, but NOW.
To appreciate those close to you, your health, your body, your freedom. At times, we can become self-centered (guilty) and think only about what is going on in our world. My needs, my this, my that. If we could just embrace the myriad of gifts and blessings that are around us now, we would experience each moment with bright eyes; like those of a child.
So I lovingly invite you to reflect. How are you currently living? From a state of gratitude and expansion or a state of negativity and contraction. Remember each moment is a choice.Choose wisely. Think about that and have a beautiful evening.
With Love, Denise
I hope everyone is enjoying summer. For me, this has been a time of great growth. Taking inventory of what is really important. Going inwards and clearing out that which no longer serves.
The simple truth is you just never know what is right around the corner. For better or worse. Not to put a negative spin on anything but just to remind myself and whoever may be reading this, that what really counts is what we are doing right now. Not tomorrow, next week or year, but NOW.
To appreciate those close to you, your health, your body, your freedom. At times, we can become self-centered (guilty) and think only about what is going on in our world. My needs, my this, my that. If we could just embrace the myriad of gifts and blessings that are around us now, we would experience each moment with bright eyes; like those of a child.
So I lovingly invite you to reflect. How are you currently living? From a state of gratitude and expansion or a state of negativity and contraction. Remember each moment is a choice.Choose wisely. Think about that and have a beautiful evening.
With Love, Denise
Thursday, June 28, 2012
The Spanish Man ON Broadway
Inspiration: To be open to receiving others in ALL ways.:)
It has been a few since I last posted, basically because I need inspiration in the external world so I can authentically share with you from my heart. This past week, I became inspired by a homeless man on Broadway.
I have seen the Spanish man for a couple of years now, always digging in and out of various garbage cans looking for "I don't know what." A close intuitive friend of mine suggested that maybe they aren't really so kray kray and possibly really intelligent, just a bid "off". I took this in and looked to see if what he said was correct.
So about a month ago, coming out of Fairway on 74th and Broadway (he frequents the Upper West Side) I offered him some almonds. Needless to say, he didn't have many teeth, at least in the front. He then goes into this long soliloquy of sorts...almost poetic. He said to just stop and say hello when I see him. Interesting.
Fast forward some weeks, and I run into him again, on Broadway...this time 79th street. I offer him some money and he wouldn't take it ( as he was barreling through the garbage). He said if he took the money someone would say he was stealing and then went on again in a profound and poetic kinda way. He then looked at me and said " You look familiar." To which I replied, "We have spoken before." I asked him his name and he said "Just call me the Spanish Man on Broadway."
As I said goodbye to him and walked away I did realize this man was actually quite complex.. He needed a shower, but he was well spoken and courteous. Truth is, we never really know others until we give them, and us the opportunity...What they are thinking, feeling and going through. Maybe he was some kind of "ANGEL" meant to teach me and others a valuable lesson. In truth, we are all spiritual beings, created equal in the mind of the creator, living a physical (or are we really) existence.
Ponder that, and talk to strangers.:)
Have a "wonderful" day.
With Love, Denise
It has been a few since I last posted, basically because I need inspiration in the external world so I can authentically share with you from my heart. This past week, I became inspired by a homeless man on Broadway.
I have seen the Spanish man for a couple of years now, always digging in and out of various garbage cans looking for "I don't know what." A close intuitive friend of mine suggested that maybe they aren't really so kray kray and possibly really intelligent, just a bid "off". I took this in and looked to see if what he said was correct.
So about a month ago, coming out of Fairway on 74th and Broadway (he frequents the Upper West Side) I offered him some almonds. Needless to say, he didn't have many teeth, at least in the front. He then goes into this long soliloquy of sorts...almost poetic. He said to just stop and say hello when I see him. Interesting.
Fast forward some weeks, and I run into him again, on Broadway...this time 79th street. I offer him some money and he wouldn't take it ( as he was barreling through the garbage). He said if he took the money someone would say he was stealing and then went on again in a profound and poetic kinda way. He then looked at me and said " You look familiar." To which I replied, "We have spoken before." I asked him his name and he said "Just call me the Spanish Man on Broadway."
As I said goodbye to him and walked away I did realize this man was actually quite complex.. He needed a shower, but he was well spoken and courteous. Truth is, we never really know others until we give them, and us the opportunity...What they are thinking, feeling and going through. Maybe he was some kind of "ANGEL" meant to teach me and others a valuable lesson. In truth, we are all spiritual beings, created equal in the mind of the creator, living a physical (or are we really) existence.
Ponder that, and talk to strangers.:)
Have a "wonderful" day.
With Love, Denise
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Sometimes You Gotta Just Ask
Inspiration: To continue to listen and ask for help when I most need it...:-)
The inspiration for this musing, comes from an experience I had last night in yoga class. The students (including me) were all at the wall practicing various types of inversions. By this I mean, handstand, forearm stand etc. It's amazing having "assistance via the wall" encourages me to find the full expression of the pose at hand.
After this playful time, the teacher then encouraged us to try a bridge (wheel pose) and walk our feet up the wall and flip over. He said it was "liberating" ! A week prior, with the assistance of a different teacher, I was able to perform the "stunt" or as I call it gymnastics from when I was a youngster. So here I am getting ready...I make my way up into full wheel and begin to walk my legs up the wall. I take a breathe and my ego says YES! I will do it now....Well guess what? It didn't happen.
In fact, I know myself and my body so well that I call across the extremely large space "Get the teacher!" I couldn't move. Thank heaven, I was strong enough to stay in the pose until help arrived. It arrived in the form of both a student and a teacher. They were both encouraging me to get out of the shape I was in differently. Hence, I was still in the pose. Finally, the student helped me come down by flipping over (I think as I was kinda freakin at this point).
Anyway, you had to be there to really see and understand the complexity of it all. In my nearly nine years of practice, I have never called; bellowed out to get the teacher. The teacher came. I needed help. The moral of this post is "Do you know when to ask for help?" Or are you too proud?
Think about it and have an AWESOME DAY !!!
With Love, Denise
The inspiration for this musing, comes from an experience I had last night in yoga class. The students (including me) were all at the wall practicing various types of inversions. By this I mean, handstand, forearm stand etc. It's amazing having "assistance via the wall" encourages me to find the full expression of the pose at hand.
After this playful time, the teacher then encouraged us to try a bridge (wheel pose) and walk our feet up the wall and flip over. He said it was "liberating" ! A week prior, with the assistance of a different teacher, I was able to perform the "stunt" or as I call it gymnastics from when I was a youngster. So here I am getting ready...I make my way up into full wheel and begin to walk my legs up the wall. I take a breathe and my ego says YES! I will do it now....Well guess what? It didn't happen.
In fact, I know myself and my body so well that I call across the extremely large space "Get the teacher!" I couldn't move. Thank heaven, I was strong enough to stay in the pose until help arrived. It arrived in the form of both a student and a teacher. They were both encouraging me to get out of the shape I was in differently. Hence, I was still in the pose. Finally, the student helped me come down by flipping over (I think as I was kinda freakin at this point).
Anyway, you had to be there to really see and understand the complexity of it all. In my nearly nine years of practice, I have never called; bellowed out to get the teacher. The teacher came. I needed help. The moral of this post is "Do you know when to ask for help?" Or are you too proud?
Think about it and have an AWESOME DAY !!!
With Love, Denise
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