Practice

It has been quite some time since I scribed. Partly because of wanting to have the "perfect" thing to articulate. Mainly because I have been continuing to go deeper than ever before into my practice. When I refer to the word practice, it can hold a myriad of meanings.

Practice can be purely physical. For instance a fitness regimen or yoga asana. We can also add meditation to the mix. As this is an extreme practice of being with the wandering insights of the monkey mind.

Practice can be also be internal. Changing our interior dialogue. Who we are. How we move in the world. Being mindful of our thoughts; our words. Are they in alignment with our highest truth? Our greatest potential?

To practice is allowing what works to keep expanding and what does not to fade into the distance. Every day is a practice. We arise (thank you heaven) each morning and are given a gift of a new day. How to you want to be in the world?

Live your highest truth. Be the change.

Much Love and Blessings, XO
Denise

Another ONE Bites the "Dust"

Inspiration: To tune in and truly LISTEN.

Don't you just love this song by Queen? From time to time this tune enters my minds eye. Always, when something says goodbye. This is one of those times.

Recently, I believe I was "divinely" guided to take a position at an all women's spa/beauty/fitness facility. I had been there once before to audition, but something just didn't feel right. I had stumbled upon a listing for a position while casually gazing online. This caught my eye. It turned out (had a feeling) to be this same place. This time it was for a managerial role utilizing my craft thrown into the mix. So without the minutia, I applied, got the position and started to work.

Back in the day, I used to work in banking and finance. Four jobs in seven years showed me that I wasn't cut out for sitting behind a desk. Especially at my first job. After twenty minutes day one, I new I was in trouble. I literally couldn't sit still. So I decided that the fourth time around if it didn't work out, I would try something new. As you can see, it didn't. The last stint, I worked directly with a group of all women. Need I say more.

So for these past eighteen plus years, I have been working for myself, freelance and at times affiliated with a health club for a period of time (sometimes for years). But through it all, I answered to myself. So here I was entering an environment after all those years where I was held accountable. To others, literally. I thought this would be "different" since it was "organic" in it's tone, but my Morgan Stanley days were staring me right in the face.

Three and half weeks later, I received an email out of left field entitled confidential. I knew. It's lovely and quite intimate to be fired in writing. You get to look someone straight in the eyes and feel badly that you have to let them go. Not. I received this information from the company's owner, who I believed to have had a good rapor with. Truth is, her staff didn't like me. They said I was rude, disruptive and intrusive. Can you believe? These incidents of my behavior were all documented, without my knowledge and then suddenly burst out into the open in this message.

The icing of the cake was that there were blatant lies told from others. Wow I thought, really? Yes really. After speaking to some of my friends who have held pristine positions in corporate environments, they said sadly people do indeed lie. I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw this.

I had a difficult time from the get go and have been praying and surrendering daily to the divine powers that be. So I got my answer. This is not for me. While there are always gifts to be received in each situation, I leave with a renewed sense and inspiration for the work I do, the gifts I share with others.

The week before I was let go, I even had a dream I was back working in the daily grind with one of the woman (actually the one who fired me) from Morgan Stanley. Yes, I was fired without just cause. I just didn't fit. That is why I do what I do and will continue to do so more fully. I am committed to truth and helping others become a grander extension of their authentic selves. In mind, in body and of course in SPIRIT.

At the core, I am a spiritual teacher/healer who is blessed to teach others how to move, be in their bodies and be present. Through my own journey, I see the truth within each human being. Even in the person who initiated my firing. I am still pissed but I get it. I was a threat. I dance to the beat of my own drum and say what I feel. I have learned from this experience to be more mindful and to tune in more fully before I offer guidance, even if it is "guided".

So dearest Ones, to the inner voice that resides within. It knows the truth...

Much Love and Blessings,
Denise

The 5 LB Frenzy

A love letter to self:

Dear Denise,

It's been nearly 32 years that you have thought about your weight. Food, calories, exercise. You know, the typical girl stuff. For twenty of those years you counted calories daily. Qualifying what was okay, when you overate and when you just felt like complete shit.

So here you are in your 48th year. Last year was the cosmic joke of all cosmic jokes for you. You were sick with a digestive disorder and dropped to 102 pounds on your 5'5 frame. Everyone asked what was wrong with you. You couldn't keep anything down as the bathroom became your new best friend. It was a debilitating and humbling time for you. Although as you always do, you looked at what was really going on to cause this in the first place. Bravo! You nipped it in the bud and today you weigh a muscular and healthy 112. You feel stronger than you have in a very, very long time...

So your skimpier clothes are a bit tighter. Your jeans are no longer falling off your hips. But let's celebrate! You have pretty much healed an autoimmune, digestive illness that doctors say is chronic. Well done. You are finally able to eat fruits and vegetables to your hearts delight and even peanut butter. Is it better to suffer and disappear?

You always speak about five pounds. To your clients, to your self. Why not just make it okay where you are? Deprivation is not good for the SOUL!!! Are you not tired of playing the same tape in your head? Let it go! It just has a distractive quality to it which keeps you from really focusing on what you deepest dreams and desires are. And you know what they are...Don't you think it is truly time to just let it go? Embrace you. All of it. And 112 is pretty f**kin thin anyways...

REPEAT: I am healthy. I am whole. I am full and complete just as I am. I am loved, I am GODDESS, I am divinity in action. And so it is certainly so.

With Love, Your Higher Self

The Erroneous Burger

There are different kinds of burgers. Veggie burgers, turkey burgers and of course the classic "the hamburger". Yesterday was monumental; for me anyway. I normally never eat meat. Unless I am in a severe iron deficiency mode or something deliciously unexpected suddenly appears. The last time I can recall having done so was nearly two years ago. My folks where in town and I was "guided" to take my mom to Shake Shack (mom loves her hammies) which is right around the corner from where I live. Since the meet there is grass-fed, I say why not.

In any event, that was until yesterday. It was a lovely pre-summer like evening. Seventy-nine degrees and sleeveless; people dressed in cool clothes, looking really cute, me included.:) I made my way down to the Pier at Riverside and West 70th at around 7pm to meet a friend and to catch the setting sun. I was beyond ravenous! All I ate all day was veggies and a protein bar. I needed something hot and satisfying. So I opted for the veggie burger, sans fries plus extra greens. For the last few weeks, I have been keeping vegetarian (not vegan) with a one day lapse for some shrimps for extra protein. My usually repetoire includes various fish,turkey and chicken. That's all. So the only thing that was appealing was a veggie burger. Okay, veggie burger it was. For my friend it twas a light beer and a cous cous salad.

So after placing our order, I walk back to the table with my soon to be vibrating buzzer in hand. Soon enough, it begins to vibrant and I eagerly make my way up to the counter to retrieve the food. As I was given our plates. I look down and see what appeared to be my "burger" and a side of fries, no greens. So I tell the guy at the counter and he says, "This is the order you placed. No greens." I said otherwise, obviously. So the fries were removed and color restored to my plastic plate.

Making my way back to the table, I was so looking forward to exploring what could possibly be prepared for me. I was ravenous as I stated. I ate a few bites voraciously as my friend says to me, "That looks like a hamburger?" At first I didn't even take notice since I was starving but soon enough realized that it was. I pause and say "Oh well. I guess it is. I take another pause and continue chowing down.And mind you, I sure this was not top quality meat I would consciously ever put in my body.

Perhaps it is my continued practice of yoga, and letting go of attachments that made me okay with this. Really okay. For those that know me really well, I am, have been very "particular" in my eating habits. So this is a big score for me. No guilt. It was what it was. A burger that my body, SOUL obviously was desiring on a much deeper level.So I went with its flow...

So beloved ones, whatever may be transpiring, be in the moment. Accept what is directly in front of you. Take a breath and pause if necessary. With a knowing that nothing is truly life shattering, especially the occasional greasy burger... Happy eating and whatever else comes your way unexpectedly.


Much Love, Denise

The DIVINE Simba and Irene

Inspiration: To continue to pause and savor, the gifts inherent in each delicious moment.

It was a Monday afternoon. Yesterday was the second warmest day to date since the ridiculously cold "tundra" we found ourselves in this past Winter. I was very much looking forwards to spending hours in the park; marinating myself in the grass, allowing my heart and SOUL to receive its nourishment...

But first, a quick stop to the Upper West Side Market FAIRWAY. A place which is always full of people, a place that if you don't do your best to remain peaceful, can be utterly agitating. So I quickly went inside and picked up whatever would be essentials I thought I needed for the evening. As I decided to go on the express line (which was a tad long), I noticed a woman on crutches right before me. I am always curious when an individual is nursing a wound, so I ask her what had happened. Here is what ensued.

She had told me she did something to her ankle and was needing the crutches to maneuver. I looked her straight in the eye, not noticing her seeing eye dog and that she was blind. Her energy emanated one of openness and ease. She was just doing her thing, picking up some groceries with her beloved Simba. Later I found out her name was Irene. She had some greek yogurt in her basket and had just asked a passing by Fairway guy if it was on sale. This was very important to her at the moment. Like my yoga practice is to me. She found out it was not on sale so I offered to assist her finding the "perfect" yogurt for her that was.

The sun outside was getting brighter and brighter and normally I would feel quite agitated. But in this moment, I knew I was meant to help Irene. To be of service to her. So we went back over to the yogurt section and I read off what was on sale. She decided upon two peach Face 2% and two blueberry ones. We then walked back over to the checkout line and I patiently waited for her to pay and then put these into her knapsack. We proceeded to walk out together, me leading the way. She thanked me for taking time to assist her. She even said something to the effect of "I hope I meet you here again Denise." My heart swelling with compassion and gratitude.

As I left the market, I felt whole and complete. Something as simple as taking some time out of my day to help another brought me great joy. The paradox of this all, was that she appeared happier and more content than most people. A blind, middle-aged woman, with crutches and a seeing eye dog. A wake up call to really appreciate all of the gifts and blessings I have in my life. Although in the physical, it is far from what I would desire, my inner heart space continues to expand in miraculous and spontaneous ways.

So I lovingly invite you to make space and time to be of service to another, whenever the moment arises. No matter what is going on. And yes, my park visit was way shortened, but it was well worth it!

Enjoy your day!!!

With Love, Denise

The VOICE of Karma

Pennies, nickels, dimes, quarters..even dollar bills. We sometimes are just walking about and happen to look down and see something shiny and sparkly. It has been said it is a sign of good luck, that prosperity is here or on its way. At one time or another, we have all been blessed with this "divine" sign which may bring a smile to our face.

About a week or so ago, I was doing some shopping in a local food store. As I approached the checkout counter, I happened to look down and see three crisp and flowing twenty dollar bills on the floor directly in front of me. While it would have been nice to keep the windfall (literally), it was clear that it fell out of someones pocket; just the way the bills were displaced on the floor. Probably even a few seconds ago.

I paused for a moment and then knelt down to retrieve the bills. Two onlookers were quick to help me retrieve what they thought was mine. But then I heard a voice within say, "NO". And then out of nowhere I stood up and saw two women online and said,"Did you happen to drop some money on the floor?"The woman checked her pocket and she said "YES".

So I handed the bills over to her and she was most appreciative. As I was checking out on another line in close proximity, I overheard her say to her friend again, "That was so nice of her." I knew I did the right thing and was even more uplifted at her double appreciation of this.

I walked away with a sense of purpose. Knowing that I did a right by someone. Yes, it would have been COOL to find sixty bucks...Perhaps if it was on the city street or park when I was moving about and spoke to me: "Yes, Denise this is for you." I would have ease fully picked it up. But no, this was not for me to grasp. Maybe it was a test. Who knows. I think I passed.:)

It was then I remembered these words from a spiritual teacher, "There is no invisible act, it is all visible to GOD (or Spirit or whatever you like to call the DIVINE)."

Think about it and have a wonderful and blessed day!
With Love, Denise

Why YOGA has me Hooked and Humble

Yoga. To some the word may summon up chanting and gurus,to others a sweaty discipline. To me it is neither. It is my sustenance, my breath, my healing. For many, many years I was guided to try this, but after popping into a class back in 1996, after a nearly hours plus workout, I was disillusioned. I stepped into a fellow personal trainer/yoga instructors power yoga class and all I wanted to do was meditate. I had no idea what meditation was. All I know was I was tired from pushing my body and I needed to chill. Little did I know there was movement, funny silly purple blocks and blankets. My ego at the time was HUGE! Little did I know indeed.

Fast forward to the year 2003. I had arrived back in NYC after living in Orange County, California for a few years. Definitely not my cup of tea. In fact, while I was there, there were clients asking me to take yoga class with them. I just raised my eyebrows like "Yeah Right"! But it was this fateful year, after breaking my pinky toe and not being able to run my six plus miles, I felt compelled. That and the fact I am been praying to slow down because I just couldn't keep training as hard and long as I was. So I actually listened to the little voice inside of me. There was a new yoga studio literally down the block from where I lived, so there was really no excuse...But then again we can always make up one.:)

It was a Sunday afternoon, and I decided to check out this new space. I looked at the schedule and realized though I was in Linda Hamilton, Terminator 2 looking shape, I should take a basics class. The only one I saw on the schedule that worked was at 3pm. I thought to myself, "What decent teacher, teaches a class at 3pm." What an ego I had.

But I went and was totally blown away!!! The class began with chanting which set the tone for Zen. Not only did it kick my ass on a physical level; my body was freaking out! I had lost so much flexibility since I never, ever stretched (you read that right) and even hated stretching clients, but knew they loved it. Here I was 37 and my body was screaming. In a good way. At the end of class came the icing. The rest. The savasana. Little did I know at that moment, that my life would be changed forever. In this lifetime anyways...

The huge gift came during savasana. The yoga actually being instructed was the Jivamukti method. It combines chanting, story, asana and a nice big rest at the end of class. If you are fortunate to be picked, the teacher comes over and rubs some really great lotion on you. So I guess today was my DAY. When he came over to me, I felt something I never, ever experienced in my lifetime...An electrical surge of energy emanating from my head straight to my feet. It was not of this world. Point being, I got the memo. It was something that had to be a part of my life. Eleven years later, it has my heart and I continue to be humbled by its teachings each time I practice.  In 2011, I formally received a Yoga Certification for my 45th birthday. It is never to late to follow your bliss.

So the inspiration and offering is to really listen to what you are guided to do. To explore. For me, it was yoga and it's healing benefits and clarity. My heart continues to open more and more and I look forward to what is to come. Listen to your heart. It knows what is best. <3

From my heart to yours.
With Love, Denise

It's A ROCKIN HORSE Kinda Year

Hello Year of the Horse. Accordingly to Chinese Astrology so to speak. Check out my monthly inspiration for more delicious details. Happy 2014! Bring it!!! With Love, Denise


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We Are ALL Beginners

Inspiration: To continue to become humbled on a daily basis.

It was a weekday afternoon. I make my way over to the Apple Store on West 66th and Broadway. Not to buy a computer, but to take a workshop on how to use my IPhone. It has taken me to late 2013 to retire my old and loyal Blackberry and join the multitude of IPhone lovers. Mostly because I was married to its keyboard and fearful of the completely touch tone screen, Who knew it would be so freeing!

So here it is 3pm and a small group of us gather in the back of the store to learn how to manuever this thing. I have had mine for about two months now and have managed to learn a bit, but I thought starting with the basics was good. Well let's just say I was the youngest of the bunch at a ripe age of 47. There were six of us in total and the teacher was late. One woman said she was on a schedule and couldn't wait any longer. It was a good thing because the "energy" of the rest of us was open, playful and eager to learn.

So finally the teacher arrives at quarter past and we begin. Two lovely women next to me made me look like I was a pro. The questions asked (including myself) to an adept user were a bit ridiculous, and our "guide" had to show us a myriad of times the answer to the same questions. Some didn't even know what version of the IPhone they had since they upgraded their operating system online. Make any sense?

I just smiled and smiled. My eyes and heart filled with wonder and possibility...Wow I thought. Beginner. Yes. Learning through new eyes. This is what it must feel like when I tell people I teach and love yoga who have never done it. A loving and gentle reminder to me what a true beginner feels like. In the land of Apple, I am pretty much as uneducated (always a choice) as it gets. A true beginner whose eyes have been cast wide open....

Do I now know how to use the damn thing? A bit better than before and I will continue to learn and explore on a daily basis. Not just how to use my phone, but to view this beautiful world through childlike eyes and wonder. Learning. Always learning. That is how we grow.

What would you like to learn??? Pole-dancing (check), drumming (check) and the list goes on....Your turn.:)

With Love, Denise

The Cat Came Back

Inspiration: To continue to believe in the kindness and compassion of others.

Walking down the street last week en route to yoga class, I noticed something odd...A cat running loose on West End Avenue. I wasn't the only one to notice this. There was a couple nearby who also seemed a bit concerned seeing this adorable creature roaming the city streets.

Our paths collided and we were trying aimlessly to stop this fearful cat from running under the nearby parked cars and possibly into the street. Finally, we were able to corner it in the entrance of a small building while eagerly attempting to look at the collar adorning its neck. Moments later, another woman walks by seeing what was transpiring and offering assistance.

After locating the cat's owners number, a phone call was placed. As I overhead the exchange, it appeared that the owner who answered the phone, seemed to be quite non-chalant. As if it was normal for a cat to be out and about. They didn't (at least from the tone of her voice) appear to think this was an urgency. Yes, cats should definitely roam freely when then need a bit a fresh air; especially in NYC. Don't you think?

Anyway, I had moments to arrive at my evening yoga catharsis (cleansing) but was able to stroke the cat along with a fearful and nervous man who was crouching to keep him from running away. So there were four of us; me stroking, the guy holding, and the other two woman eagerly awaiting the owner to show up.

Minutes later he arrives. I slowly apologize (in the distance) for having to take off but I manage to overhear the owner saying something like, "Oh, where was he. He usually goes only on this block." To him it was no big deal.

To the others present, it was a very big f**kin deal ! Just goes to show you, there are many levels of awareness, caring and urgency. What really hit me was that it was a reminder that what one person views as urgent, another views as it's no big deal.... But what I did love about this incident, was the kindness and compassion by complete strangers who were desperately trying to keep the cat out of harms way.

Always remember, there is kindness all around. What you reap you sow. One day, you may need help in some way. Why not be there for others. It's good KARMA. Just saying....

With Love, Denise

16 Handles of Patience

Inspiration: To continue to do my best to remain present and calm under all circumstances.

16 Handles. The popular yogurt establishment that has gained popularity in recent years. With its varied array of delectable dessert flavors and toppings, it has become a staple amongst both kids and grown-ups. You can sample as many flavors as your heart desires and then create your own splendid masterpiece for digestion.

The caveat here is you can have as much as you want, but it is weighed by the ounce. So a colorful sweet and delectable dish can run you a pretty penny. Probably someone in the vacinity of ten bucks. But who cares, it so much fun to watch the spiral of swirl and yumminess fall into your cup.

Almost daily, this has been one of my added rituals, especially after yoga class. I arrive in an expanded, "blissful" state, looking forward to the possibility of having my favorite flavors; pistachio and ANYTHING with chocolate and peanut butter. :)

So on a recent weekday eve, I make my way over after a juicy and delicious yoga experience. I was pretty blissed out and rather peaceful...After I created my sweet treat, I made my way over to the checkout line. It happened to be rather short so I was elated. However, when it came to be my turn, here is what ensued.

For every fifty bucks you spend here, you receive a five dollar reward which can be used to your next purchase. You can either present a card or use your telephone number. Since my card was nowhere in sight, I gave my number. This tattooed looking young guy asked me for this number almost eleven times (I kid you not).Those gathered in line behind me were in complete awe of his lack of presence and possible capability. I finally said, "I usually have a lot of patience and just got back from yoga class, but I am losing my BUZZ...Do you need someone to help you out here?"

This young adorned guy of course said, "No. I know what I am doing." (of course you do that's why I told you the same thing so many times). If he knew what he was f**kin doing why didn't he get it right the first time? This brings me to the point of this whole musing. A question of presence. Was he present (not) or was his mind off somewhere else. I only say this because when we are totally present, everything unfolds with ease. There is no lag time whatsoever in doing or becoming one with the task at hand. Perhaps this guy just needs to get a little yoga groove on. One can only hope....The question is, "Are you being fully present to what is?"

Anyway, the desert was still pretty damn AWESOME!!!

With Love, Denise

The Mystery of the Capricorn

Inspiration: To continue to be amazed by the Universe's musings and messages...

My favorite, meditative place to go is Riverside Park NYC in the evenings. It is here I empty myself completely to the night sky, the trees and the water in the distance. This has become somewhat of a ritual for me, especially on these beautiful Summer nights.

After 9pm, the dogs are in charge and roam freely off leash. They are a myriad of different shapes and sizes and it always brings a smile to face to watch these beloved animals wander aimlessly with complete joy. I have become friendly with some of the dog owners and recently met one in particular. A beautiful woman with a labradoodle who exuded a positive vibe.  A couple of years ago, I recall we briefly spoke about what kind of dog she had. On this particular Sunday evening, as I was walking towards exiting the park, I saw her with a friend and their two dogs playing. As I walked by, both dogs gathered around me without me paying any attention to them.

This woman said that witnessing this brought her "chills" . I didn't think much of it but that my energy must have been chill, especially after yoga and meditation. We began a dialogue and soon enough I found myself walking out of the park with her. Since we lived quite close to one another, I walked in her path and I felt a familiar resonance with her.

She opened up to me about her love for nature, being out of the city and just being in flow (yoga). She shared with me a recent break-up with a man she had been with for nearly two years. After listening and having complete empathy for her (as I could totally relate), I asked the question, "He's not a Capricorn is he?" To which she responded YES. My follow up question was, "When is his birthday?" She replied, "December 24th." A great big smile came upon my face. Here is why.

In the past decade, I have been involved with three Capricorn men. Some more seriously than others but all had birthdays within days of each other:...December 23, 25 and 26. When this amazingly, beautiful woman shared with me her now ex's date I couldn't help but share a bit of my story. We both laughed and took it as some GREAT sign from the Universe! It was definitely a missing piece to some sort of puzzle. Dare I try to label it or put words to what I think. Just a friendly "sprinkle" from the great unknown that there is always a message and gift in everything.

With this experience, I gained a new amazing female friend. A woman of like-mind and heart, who practices yoga and loves nature. So perfect. As for the Capricorn male, he is fixed, rigid, practical (but not all though) and most of all stubborn. But aren't we all in some way. No judgments. Just a thought and my observation.

So dear ones, be open to the messages the Universe powers have in store for us. When we pay attention and listen, we are somehow lovingly guided to the next step. Think about that for a bit and have a blessed day!

With Love, Denise

The BELOVED One

Inspiration: To continue to believe that love moves mountains...

It has been said, there are many that walk the earth as Avatars and Saints. Last Friday, I was honored to be blessed by one of them; the beloved Amma, who travels the globe sharing her message of unconditional love and healing. She is widely known for changing the trajectory of ones life just by giving them a simple (but intensely loving) embrace.

Last year I attempted to go see her and feel her magnificence. To receive a hug from her, you must arrive many hours early to receive a token. Depending on the turnout, you may have to wait much much longer than you think an individual could bear. Some ten plus hours (for this saintly hug).

Recently, I have been thinking about her and was given sign one when a favorite yoga teacher of mine announced after class that she would be in town. A part of me knew it would be beneficial for to go, but my resistance and "ego" didn't want to spend an entire day and night at  the Jacob Javitz Center in Midtown NYC. Sign two came a day later when I was on the subway traveling uptown. A woman with her girl asked me, "Did you just come from seeing Amma?" It must have been the garb I was wearing. She had shared she just had come from there and felt truly amazing! So I knew for sure the UNIVERSE was definitely tell me to GO. But which day?

I decided upon Friday as it seemed best with my schedule. The morning of, I sat in meditation asking that my time visiting with Amma devotees and layman (as myself) be as ease full as possible. That the day unfold as it was meant to; with complete surrender to possibly being there ten plus hours. In the afternoon sign three came. Upon arriving at my gym to workout, reluctantly and tired I may say, I see a paper posted on the door that says, "Gym closed from 12-4pm for annual picnic." WOW!!! So I bolted down to the Javitz Center and was there by 3pm.

Upon arriving I had asked, "Where is the token line?" Since I was quite early for the evening program, I was the second person in line. Mind you, the place was still quite full with food vendors and concession stands filled with jewelry, clothing, books and Amma completing the morning program with hugs. I was then told by person numero uno to go and get a time card. What this does is give you some sort of precedence in seeing Amma. Without the whole story, I am so glad I did. While waiting on line to be seated, I met some truly wonderful people. One, a dear acupuncturist and a another "soulful", spiritual couple that just radiated divine light. This made the wait to be seated for the evening program leaving me with an inner sense of serenity and peace.

After all of this waiting, I was finally seated, in the fourth row of center. So excited!!! The evening program was divine and I had two encounters with people I knew before receiving my divine hug. My friend had spotted me on the way to the louve during the chanting. When I went over to her and her husband, I had immediately noticed she was wearing the exact same mediation scarf as I in a lilac purple (and she is a stylist and designer). The second encounter was when the girl seated next to me on the aisle got up for a bit. I then look down and see my friend, who last year was my hug from Amma. Meaning he gave me a divine hug.:) What are the chances of him just showing up at almost 9pm sitting on the floor next to me in a crowded venue?

Finally, hugging time came. I was filled with excitement. What would I silently ask of her? Should I be specific? A practice for me has been to truly surrender any expectations and attachments on outcome. When my turn came, I bowed down before her. The embrace was complete and total surrender. Tears falling from my eyes. I have never experienced such pure bliss, unconditional love in the presence of another. A divine encounter. When it was over I received a chocolate hersheys's kiss and some rose petals (as did everyone). I was touched by an unbelievable light. So full of gratitude. :)

It was just before 10:30pm when I departed from the venue. The whole time I was there was 7.5 hours. Thank you SPIRIT, for making this day so magical. A day I will hold close to my heart and soul. So dear ones, be mindful and surround yourself with individuals and group that raise your frequency. In other words, where your energy vibrates at a higher octave. From this space, anything is possible...

With Love and Many Blessings,
Denise

Yoga: The REAL Truth

Inspiration: To continue to deepen my practice of the healing benefits of Yoga...

Yoga, yoga and more yoga....Studios are opening by the month across the country and probably the world. It has become a billion dollar industry. Apparel, trainings, retreats, festivals,you name it. This is a wonderful thing, to help others connect to their true self, their highest potential. But it seems like with anything else, things are a bit out of alignment.

This morning on facebook I came across a video posted by a celebrity yoga teacher who works with Jennifer Aniston. How to get a body like Jen? Really people, you have to be f**kin kidding. Yoga is not meant to be  a "workout". Yes, it is a physical  practice but this is only 1/8 of what yoga is. It is the 3rd limb of yoga; ASANA. What about the other 7 ???

Being both a fitness and yoga teacher and practitioner, I have to admit I quite was taken a back (putting it mildly). This is not a judgment but a deep reflection and observation. Yes, yoga does provide a very active and physical element but I think many are missing the point. It is to become aware, to be present so that there is space within to see clearly what is most important. To live our lives from a place of authenticity and wholeness.  That is what it is for me anyway. It helps to rewire the nervous system, negative patterns and beliefs so we become a more integrated, conscious being. Yoga facilitates healing on a very "deep" core level.

So the next time you think about yoga, think about the entire premise. An energetic system of healing to becoming whole: In mind, in body and of course in SPIRIT! Think about that and have a very blessed day.
OM Shanti.

With Love, Denise

Of ALL Places A Yoga Studio

Inspiration: To continue to to trust, while being mindful...

It happened again. I just couldn't believe it. In the holiest of places, to me anyway. My yoga studio. It is here a myriad of times a week, I practice. I surrender. I create space internally for my heart to be transformed, to be healed of any emotions that no longer serve me. Feeling the sweetness of my breath, my body and my SPIRIT.

But for the second time within six months, my wallet was visited by hands other than my own. Money was taken; the same exact amount. Can you believe? Kinda twilight zone-ish. Truth is, I knew better after the first time. I tend to be trusting and rarely use a lock when I leave my belongings in the locker room. Hence the word, locker: lock

Who would have thought of all places, a yoga studio??? Not me, but it just goes to show you, that anything can happen anywhere. Maybe I was playing out some past or present life karma. Who knows. What I do know is that I felt violated by my beloved space which has once again showed me IT"S humanness...That there is always contrast in some form. A dark and a light. A yin and a yang. Make any sense?

Listening to our intuition, that tiny subtle voice that speaks in whispers is essential. This second time around, I happened to bring my belongings into the yoga studio when I practiced and then took a quick two minute shower, with bag in locker. Anything can happen in a moment. As in the song by The Spinners goes: " It only takes a minute girl, to fall in love"... But that's a very good moment.  Have a deliciously blessed day!

With Love, Denise

The POWER of Affirmations

Inspiration: To continue to believe in the POWER of our words.

Words hold creative power, creative potential. What we say, feel and do will at some point create our external (and of course internal) experiences. It could be spoken, thought or written. But truth be told, when we can SEE what we are speaking, thinking and believing it has the innate ability to show us where we are going.

One of my fav's is: " I am a magnet for Divine ................. You fill in the blanks. Some powerful words are abundance, prosperity, love, guidance. All stating that you are already that and are accepting and creating the space to receive it. But however, there is one caveat. You have to believe it. One can say or scribe, " I am in a loving, committed, romantic relationship" but if you do not feel worthy or ready, what you get is just that. The feeling of unworthy and not ready which will not bring your desire to fruition.

Recently, I have been thinking of creating a gigantic mural in spray paint of affirmations. Just the thought of creating something BIG makes me feel expansive. So by scribing this here, I am making myself accountable (at least at some point anyway) to do this. Creativity brings expansion. Expansion brings space. Space brings possibilities....

So what it it that you have been thinking, feeling and desiring??? Write it down. Shout it out. Claim it as if it is already yours. The UNIVERSE loves this! It is saying a great big Yes to whatever you are. Whatever you desire to make manifest. Believe in you, believe in the power of your words. Marinate on that for a bit. And shine your gorgeous, great, big "beautiful" lights!

From my heart to yours.
With Love, Denise

The Two Moons

Inspiration: To continue to be surprised by anything...

This REALLY happened! While the above title may imply the literal meaning of a moon, it is not. It refers to the nakedness of one's backside. I know this may seem a bit weird, but this past week I got a glimpse of two moons in the same day. Let me explain.

Moon One...I was working with a home client while her husband was getting ready for his day. We usually work in the living room, but I happened to be standing in the hallway for a moment. Then, suddenly I turn around, and see nakedness from behind. It was a brief moment, as this gent was making his way from the bathroom into the bedroom which appeared to be a foots distance away.

Moon Two...In the brownstone building I reside, we are lucky enough to have someone home all hours of the day in addition to the UPS man having a key. I had noticed a small package for my downstairs neighbors and thought it may be important. So I make my way down the stays to their ground level apartment. I hear dogs barking and a baby crying. Then the bellow out of the dad's mouth. Oh God, I say. Perfect timing. Anyway, I didn't want to add to the noise level so I gently knocked on the window. No reply. Then I pier into the apartment and I see dad, butt naked holding his son. Okay, whatever. So I then ring the doorbell.

I share this with you reading because in my whole incarnation living in New York City, I have never witnessed a "mooning". Not deliberately, but it was clearly a MOON. And two in one day!!! I have to think the Universe is speaking to me in some way as I view all of life's messages as some sort of sign. I cannot even hazard a guess as to what this means or do I even attempt to try. It was just simply unexpected, hilarious and funny all wrapped up in one surprising moment.

It is these unexpected moments, signs, inspirations that keep life vibrant. Often comical at times and even bizarre. It is within these musings, that you have to believe there is an intelligence far beyond our comprehension, running the show...So the next time something seemingly awkward happens, just smile and take that as a amusement from the divine.

Have an amazingly blessed day!
With Love, Denise

The Blinded ONE

Inspiration: To really OPEN up to receive the gifts in each moment...

Back in the day, I was an avid runner. Running any distance under six miles I considered a joke. Guess my ego self was truly in the lead. Today, if I ran that distance I would be as sore as anything. In fact a few weeks ago I was.

It was a beautiful sunny day. The thought of going to the gym made me cringe. So out of nowhere I put my old running sneakers on and decided to go to Central Park; a place my feet literally made love to for so many years...I told myself I had to take it easy no matter how good a shape I was in. So on that divine day, I ran about 2.75 miles. Then I must have walked a few more around NYC and by the next day, my hamstrings were screaming!!! Ouch I thought. Especially after going to yoga class and really feeling how tight my muscles were.

It has been a few weeks, but since the weather here in the city has truly been stellar, I decided to give it another "run". This time going a bit further; not to fast. Taking in all the beauty that surrounded me. I was good to my word and didn't complete the entire loop and decided to walk. I still get the whole running thing, being in nature, connecting with the nature elements. But when I slowed down to walk at a  literal snails pace, I really saw it all.

As I was walking I was thinking about some external issues that were weighing down on me. Then suddenly, I turn to my right. I see a sweet looking younger woman. A brunette with a ponytail and sunglasses. In her hand was one of those sticks. That the blind use.

She was standing in place and looked as if she didn't know which way to go. I casually walked over and asked her what her destination was. With a great big smile, she said, " I would like to go to the East side. Eighty-eighth and Madison." After explaining to her the best way to go, she then broke it down directionally to me. East, North, etc. This is how she directed herself. A huge smile and radiance exuding from her being. She was happy to just be headed in the right direction. She thanked me politely and was on her way.

As I left this divine encounter I was amazed. Here was this girl who couldn't see with her eyes but really saw more deeply than most of us. She was truly living in the moment with an energy that exuded love, gratitude and heart. Wow I thought. A big wake up call...

Many of us (and yes me, guilty) walk around in a haze or daze at times. Not feeling as abundant as maybe we should be. Not experiencing the beauty and gifts that are around us in each moment. So who was really more blind??? As I continued to walk, I thought about a dear friend I have not seen or heard from in a while. A moment later, I found something with their first name initial on it. I pick it up and cried. A gentle reminder that it is in moment where we are truly alive. It is the small stuff that really matters. It is living with an open heart filled with possibility and awe....Are your eyes wide open?

Wishing you a day filled with grace and MAGIC!
With Love, Denise

It's Showtime

Inspiration: To take a moment and a breath, before deciding.

The NYC subway system. The quickest way to get around the city, and the most disruptive. Yesterday,  I had the pleasure of traveling down to the Wall Street area (on weekend), when the subways tend to be overcrowded with tourists and express trains tend to go local.

It took me about forty minutes to travel downtown and find my way to my friends gathering who was having a Reiki healing circle. On my way back uptown, I really was looking forward to just zoning out on the ride home and enjoying the energy radiating within. Then it happened...

A teenage or young lad, gets on the train with his "boombox'. He says, "It's Showtime!" I say to myself, "OH GOD, can't we just have a little peace here." Then his performance begins. He asks the people to clear near the doors so he could put on his act. He starts doing acrobatics, aerials and break-dancing. Minutes later a friend joins him in this adept acrobatics show. Actually, I was really impressed....It brought a smile to my face. I usually loathe when people ask for money, but these guys deserved it.

What is the moral of the story? To take a moment and reserve judgment. You never know when you are going to be amazed!!! The kid even had a ripped eight pack. Guess it was from his handstand push-ups he showcased.

Be open to the magic that is all around YOU!
Have a blissful day!

With Love, Denise

The Private Number

Inspiration: To continue to be awe-struck.

The phone rings. It says "Private Number". I usually never answer my phone when I see this (tend to not answer my phone much anyway) but at this particular moment, something inside me said to pick it up. "Hello, I say?" The person on the other end says, "Denise?" I reply, "Yes" but did not recognize the voice.

So I explored a bit further. I asked, " Who might you be looking for? This is Denise?" She said she was looking for Denise from the school. I was a bit confused but stayed on the line.  I said this is Denise Brandi. She then asked who I was and what I did. For some strange reason, I told her I was a fitness, yoga and spiritual teacher. Really that my heart was into spiritual teaching and that I was intuitive. She said she was in the market  for someone to assist her with weight loss and feeling balanced and grounded. A few moments later, I recognize her voice,

Without using her real name, let's just call her Valerie. I distinctly remember meeting her almost ten years ago at Tobay Beach when I was with my mom for the day. She was with her husband and three "beautiful" kids. We spent a considerable amount of time chatting and connecting; her family and mine. It was a divine conversation. We had exchanged numbers and I heard from her once. She had called to tell me her husband was sick, maybe nine years ago.

Well fast forward to present day. It was Valerie! The woman I had met on the beach a decade ago. She had shared with me her story, and how she had lost her husband seven years ago. I could feel her heart. Her pain. She still seemed to be in a very heavy place; a place of unforgiveness and carrying a tremendous amount of guilt and remorse. At one point I remember saying to her, " I remember your husband. He was a beautiful man." I could feel her smile broadly as I said this. She thanked me for speaking so honestly and that she deeply appreciated my frankness.

The conversation lasted for a bit and we spoke about the possibility of getting together. For a drink and for me to possibly work with her on her journey back into healing and wholeness. I felt honored and humbled, simultaneously.  I have absolutely no expectation on what this means or what is to unfold or not. All I can say is that some things happen spontaneously and mysteriously and we never really know why. Maybe someone just needs a bit of support during a dark time. A safe and loving place to honestly be with their emotions. I hope I was that for Valerie yesterday.

All in all, you just never know where or when something "magical" can happen!!! Be open and allow the divine pulsation of life to guide you in each extraordinary moment. Be love and loving. And you are....

Have a magnificent day!
With Love, Denise